It’s kind of prophetic that I’m dropping this months after 2020 ended. It kind of goes to show how all over the place the year was.
This is hopefully the final version of this review that I wanna pst. There are 7 different versions of this 2020 post, 3 of them fully finished. But as I continued writing them, there hadn’t been a point where I felt comfortable with that vision. I’m sure a lot of artists have to deal with that. Especially when MF DOOM died just as I was about to finish my 2nd draft of the 2020 reflection. That whole writing ended up becoming something completely else and didn’t feel appropriate to post.
But I guess it’s moments like that where I remember that I’m not making these writings out of spite. At times I have to take a stepback and refrain myself from forcing things out. Cause I can think of plenty of occasions where I shared something just for the sake of having something shared. Obviously I’m not gonna say what those things were, but I often look back at them and think, “Damn, was that really what I wanted?” There were plenty of times where I put others before me, but this year was different. 2020 was different because through putting myself before others, I also ended up putting others before me.
I don’t need to go in-depth about how COVID-19 absolutely changed everything. The reason this is so hard is because what more can I say that hasn’t already been said?
I guess the first thing I’ll start off with is shoutouts. Usually I leave this for last but I feel I should begin with it. The first shoutout I’d like to give is to you, the person reading this. If you’re currently reading this then you survived 2020, and that’s something to celebrate. A lot of people didn’t make it to today, and it’s in moments like these where you realize how special life can be, and with that, how quickly life can be taken away from you.
The second shoutout goes to all the essential workers that maintained vitality and composure throughout 2020. Both of my parents are healthcare workers, and it was in 2020 that I truly realized how significant their work is. On New Years Eve I was telling my mom how wild it is that they’re working in a historic time period, and like when they’re old and grandparents, they’ll be able to tell me and my siblings’ kids all the things they had to deal with when working during the COVID-19 pandemic.
The third shoutout goes to all the social activists and people who continued to fight for justice in these uncertain times. I have participated in social activism, but I don’t feel like I have done enough work on my end to classify myself as a social activist. The title is a demanding one; after watching my sister virtually contribute as she lives back at home now, I realize that it’s an ongoing battle. I can’t really pick and choose when I want to be an activist. If I’m going to go in, I’m gonna have to go all in, and this is something I hope to capture in 2021. I recognize that I have a voice and influence on others, and while I may have made a few strides early in the year, there’s so much work left to be done and I have to get back in my bag.
The fourth shoutout I have to give is to all my IRLs: my friends, acquaintances, teachers and professors, people who I don’t really f*** with, my mutuals, people who’ve wronged me / been unkind to me, and everyone in between. 2020 was a trying time where communication was truly set back, and I admittedly lost contact with a lot of people. It made me reflect on the relationships I have - 2020 helped me realize I had a lot of one-sided relationships where I was putting in all the effort. So many people of mine I would always message first, always message first, and literally always message first. Plenty of times where I can’t recall the other person making the first effort to initiate interaction, at that point I realized I wanted it more than the other person. I have no hate or ill will to these people, it was just an eye opening moment where I realized that I was exerting my energy in the wrong places, spaces that weren’t utilizing or appreciating what I had to offer. There’s no “wrong” person in this situation, it’s just that in being there for myself and choosing myself, I was the “right” person for myself.
I was just the one initiating conversation with who I thought were my friends, and they were just responding. I remember reading something and it said like, "If you stopped messaging your friends first, would they ever message back?" And I was like “Damn...” So much time I'd spend reaching out to people who wouldn't even do the same for me. A lot of the time I used to do that so I can receive validation through them, but I know self-love and confidence now, I don't need anyone's approval for me to know I'm out here, you feel?
I'm sure a lot of you can relate to reaching out to your friends first in order to piece together your relationship, and there's an emphasis on "first". It's almost never the other way around, it's always you who has to make the first, initial effort to fix everything. That was like my coming of age experience, exerting so much energy into those who don't really give a f*** about you like that.
It truly did make me appreciate the low-effort and low-maintenance relationships that I do have. These friends throughout years who that, even if we don’t talk much, I know that the love’s still there. We don't have to maintain that much communication/connection to "prove" to each other that we still care. Low effort/maintenance relationships are so real cause both of you guys understand that y'all are occupied, and THAT doesn't take away from the fact that you'll be friends regardless of what happens.
I think of my timeless example of Richmond. I maybe talked to him like 8 times last year, but I know that he has my back forever and I do his. In my mind I feel like I have a lot of friends like this, but I may not have vocalized that. I don’t want people to think that they’re disconnected to me if I don’t talk to them like that. If I haven’t talked to you directly in a hot minute, know that the love’s still there, I promise. And I guess this is kind of like a bail out apology too, cause I can admit I have a hard time keeping relationships together throughout 2020. As I said before, it was me trying to distinguish which relationships were one-sided, and how I couldn’t figure out what were the right relationships to invest in.
With that said though, I did fix a few relationships of mine that were kind of crumbling, and for that I’m happy.
The fifth shoutout goes to all of my online friends and the Discord circle/community I’ve found myself in. As of this moment, my Discord server, Izeezuscord (lol), has about 160 members, and they’re all people that I’ve talked to for a decent period. I honestly never would have gotten back into Discord if it weren’t for the pandemic. I got back into Discord in March, when classes started going virtual and I quickly realized ahead of time that I would no longer be able to communicate/link up with my IRLs. So with that, I rejoined 2-3 of the servers that I used to be active in in 2019, and it was one of the best decisions I ever made.
I know a lot of my IRLs felt disconnected and weren’t receiving enough validation throughout quarantine, and like, I felt pretty blessed and fortunate that that didn’t really happen to me last year. The extroverts really lost last year, and while I was able to hold my own as an introvert, reconnecting with my Discord friends and making new ones was one of the most empowering things I felt during my online career. Of course, I’ll never deny all the real ones I know via Discord, such as when I met Edrick in New York BECAUSE of Discord (a history book moment), but my 2020 Discord experience truly did make me see the validity of online friendships.
For the record, I never invalidated online friendships, but especially during quarantine when we were all locked up at home, being unable to hang with our IRLs, we were basically forced to be glued to the Internet all day; I’m glad I was able to have a positive experience in doing so. There is validity in online friendships and online communities. If you find the right people or like the right Discord server in this case (Izeezuscord, for example lol), it can be very empowering and energizing.
So I truly do have to give a shoutout to all of my online friends. You guys really taught me how to love and reaffirm people, especially in this time when people need validation. I talk to my IRLs so affectionately because the conversations I've had with you guys have had such an influence on my communication abilities.
The wildest thing is that they’re probably going to make up the majority of people reading this, because I ping people in there whenever I write about something. The reason I actually haven’t posted anything on my blog or made any Instagram stories is because I’ve reserved all of my energy into writing things for that small server of people, cause I know there are people there that care deeply about what I have to say and take it in. That means a lot to me. I’m not saying that my IRLs or anyone on my Instagram doesn’t or wouldn’t, but it’s a lot easier to talk about things to an exclusive group of people, like if I talked about personal issues that I’m dealing with for example. There are about 300-370 people that watch my IG stories, 90% of people whom I like barely talk to on the regular like that. I don’t know if I’d want to be venting my life struggles out to the public like that.
I tend to keep my online circle in Izeezuscord away from my IRLs. Even my four best friends aren’t in there, my friends who I literally talk to everyday. I reserve different spaces for my different communities, and besides, I think it’d be weird if they were all in there with hundreds of online people who THEY have never talked to before and who I have never met before. This is actually why Instagram is my favorite social media, because it’s the only social media of mine that intersects with all of my IRL circles as well as my online circles. Instagram is the only place where my high school and college friends will be on the same page as my friends from PS4, Discord, Genius, and other parts of the Internet you can find me at. It’s also really interesting to see how these different people respond and interact with me, I never take any of it for granted. A beautiful intersection for sure.
It’s interesting though, because my IRL version of myself is usually portrayed online. Normally I’d never let my online version affect my IRL life, but in 2020 it did, and I’ve found myself more loving and appreciative than I normally would be. I remember thinking I was too cool to be commenting on my friends’ Insta posts, replying to people’s IG stories, and just letting people know that they matter. Nowadays, I literally just randomly DM people when I’m thinking of them or I just straight up call them to let them know I’m thinking of them.
To everyone reading this, love is free. Showing love is free. None of you are too cool to message people first, and if anything I think people who message first are really cool. It shows that they’re confident and that they care.
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I had a lot of defining moments during my quarantined 2020, but one that I’ll always remember was when fast food restaurants were giving free meals for healthcare workers... Man we really ran that up LOL. For like a decent period of time, my diet solely consisted of McDonald’s and White Castle, it was the greatest time ever. God bless them for real. I guess it was also good too, because I got taste fatigue from the same meal over and over, and that I ended up avoiding both of those restaurants for a decent period of time.
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My summer will 100% go down as the summer of Jojo for me, Jojo being Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure. 9 told me so many times to watch it, and I kept telling him I would (as I watched Parts 1 and 2 a while ago), but in the summer I watched Parts 3-5, and it was all so good that I even read Part 6 during my short stint with my iPad (who I traded with Matthew). So many of my quarantined summer nights included just waiting and anticipating for my dad to go to sleep so I can go downstairs and punch out 1-2 episodes of Jojo every night. I’ll never forget those moments, such an amazing anime. Stone Ocean hopefully this year!!!
I have such a huge crush on Jolyne, she's on the top right of my laptop
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My birthday was quarantined too, which sucked cause I wanted to link up with my friends, but it’s all good because my brother made banana bread and that was amazing. I thought year 21 would be lit but it really consisted of just sitting in my room all day and playing basketball in my backyard. I barely did anything this year, I did not accomplish much, and THAT IS OKAY. For me personally, 2020 was not about measuring my accomplishments, but rather it made me reevaluate what accomplishments truly were, and how they were legitimized. We’re taught at a young age that physical, financial and academic feats are considered accomplishments. But it’s so much deeper than that. It’s about recognizing that mental adaptation is a FORM of growth and that changing up your normal routines to a COVID-present lifestyle is a REAL SIGN OF GROWTH!!! A lot of mfs never adapted to the new wave and now they’re all anti-maskers getting covid LOL.
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Virtual classes suck and online college sucks, I hate it. I never thought my final semester with all my blowoff classes would end up being my hardest; they're all asynchronous so I have to hold myself accountable.
This small tidbit is just a shoutout to campus man. I miss going on the CTA trains for my 2 hour commute (It's wild how you appreciate those seemingly waste-of-time train rides, but I've learned so much from those experiences, they've truly helped build adult Izeezus. It was such a beautiful introduction to adulthood, and I really do miss my bus and train rides. I miss seeing all the girls I had crushes on at campus, I miss having to choose between Panda Express or Chick Fil A but ultimately choosing Subway because it was the cheapest and "healthiest" option. I miss my professors, I even miss the annoying skateboarders who skateboarded in the middle of campus every single day. I miss going late to class, I miss coming to school early so I could go to the library and complete my assignments minutes before they were due in-class, I miss literally just sitting down and watching people, observing how they communicate with others and made me think of me and my friends. I miss seeing Alex too, she's literally my college best friend and especially since I didn't make a deep effort making friends in college because I was too focused on getting my graduation credits and getting out, I truly never take her for granted. And she's really pretty + happy with her boyfriend who's amazing looking as well so I'm happy for both of them.
I certainly DON'T miss my freshman year when I had to walk to the financial aid office multiple times a week just to clear up my award letter, grants, and loans. Especially with all the pressure my sister used to put on me, it brought me so much anxiety and I hated every moment of that because I was so scared of the future.
It sucks that my final semester of undergrad college was virtual and I didn't get to bond with my professors one last time, but I'm sure a similar experience will reoccur when I go to grad school in the future. Shoutout to all my professors though, they've been so good to me and I don't take them for granted.
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Something I've continuously thought about in 2020 was how to measure growth and what's the relationship between growth and change.
I know y'all don't feel like you haven't experienced growth this year, but you've both experienced change and adaptation this year. Your commute, habits, wellbeing, your own personal code, all of these have been affected during quarantine. Maybe even your own beliefs too, you might have thought you were certain about something in your life but all this free time to yourself has changed your stance on a certain topic. Interests may have evolved during quarantine as well. You may have taken on a new hobby during these times because you were bored at home and trying to keep yourself occupied with the resources you have with you.
Regardless of what the change may be, it’s certain that you have changed and that your life following quarantine will be different as your personal identity will be a lot different than what it was a few months ago.
A phrase that my boss keeps using is the “new normal”, and it’s basically the reality that we’re never going to go back to the life we new pre-Covid. Even after quarantine is officially over (and that’s still a VERY long time away), I won’t be surprised if people will still be wearing masks and social distancing. I know I’m still going to be skeptical of indoor dining, it’s always been sus to me and I don't know how I feel about restaurants opening up again for indoor dining.
We’re all living through a different identity than the ones we knew a year ago, because we’ve all collectively gone through a traumatic experience in the pandemic and we’ve adapted our lives.
It’s important to recognize how much you have changed in these past few months. And remember that accomplishments do not define growth. You may have accomplished absolutely nothing throughout quarantine, but that doesn’t tell the story about whether your life has changed or not, whether your mind has changed or not, or whether your wellbeing has changed or not.
Admittedly, my social skills aren’t as sharp as they used to be for sure. A few weeks ago when I went to go get my flu shot, I stuttered and hesitated multiple times when stating my name, phone number and address. I hadn’t done it in so long that when finally confronted with it, I tweaked multiple times. My sister told me I sounded fake as hell, as if I didn’t actually live there and that I wasn’t born on March 26, 1999 LMAO. It was not my finest experience.
In the same way, I understand that there are plenty of aspects of my identity that I need to adjust accordingly to prepare for the new normal. I am definitely NOT primed to go back to reality lol, I’m way too comfortable literally staying at home all day. But at one point or another I’m gonna have to get back to wearing nice clothes and not slippers + a hoodie everyday lol.
I think my point is that 2020 for me wasn't really about measuring my growth, but instead embracing my change and learning to accept it.
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I really deeply miss basketball, I’m not gonna lie to y’all. That was probably the biggest hobby loss of mine in 2020. Yeah, I could play basketball in my backyard, but just losing that ability to go to the gym by my house and hoop whenever was lost in my life. The lack of basketball last year was the biggest contributor to quarantine depression that I had. It made me think of how bad some high school or college athletes had it, as it was literally their lives that are on pause for a whole year. For me it was just a pastime, but especially when basketball’s such a fresh way to clear up your mind, it’s really tough to have that taken away from you. That indoor court, the Wilson basketball, your indoor basketball shoes and gym bag, so many precious items of mine that I haven’t touched since God knows when. Whenever there were family issues happening at my house like fights or whatever, and I'm frustrated because it's out of my control, I'd literally just be like “F*** it” then go to the gym. It was one of the few certainties that we lost because of COVID, I definitely won't take it for granted when it comes back.
I also think of my best friends who I didn’t really get to hang out with like that last year. But honestly, we literally did not lose any connection because we have our Discord server that we talk in every day. We made it in December of 2019, and it was a timeless decision because it’s literally the best group chat possible, as we can ping each other, add our own custom emotes, react to each others’ messages, and voice call with each other. We’re gamers so that voice call function has come in so clutch, and honestly gamers won in 2020. Not in regards to video games being good in 2020, but in a pre-COVID reality, me and my friends normally played video games online with each other more than we met up IRL with each other. No doubt, the 2AM fast food runs hit different and I miss them so much, but in terms of maintaining our friendships in 2020, we were able to hold our own virtually because we had more reason to play games with each other. So shoutout y’all, chances are Javi’s gonna be the only one who reads this so special shoutout to him LOL. We often have our tense moments but it’s all love and without him I would not be as confident as I am today. Plenty of qualities to him that I try to emulate like loyalty, masculinity, and like relentless pursuit for greatness. Because I admittedly gained like 10-12 pounds during quarantine and I’m nowhere near where I want to be physically, so I gotta get back in my bag. Also he’s literally so much smarter than me in so many different aspects, aspects of myself I hope to reinvigorate in 2021.
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I also got a great internship last summer, and I don’t know what I’m allowed to say about them, but all I will say is that I’m truly grateful for it and I hope I can continue my ventures with them. I always believed in my worth but this internship truly pays me generously, way more than I ever would have expected.
There was a point last year where I had attained both an internship at the Museum of Contemporary Art which I was absolutely pumped for, and then a job as a tour guide at the Museum of Science and Industry. They were two phenomenal jobs that I wanted very badly; it’s been a dream job of mine to work at the MCA because it’s my favorite museum, and I’ve always thought myself to be a great tour guide because of my outwardness / theatrical presence when I’m in front of a group, I really know how to bring out the energy. Then both of them got cancelled because of COVID-19, which kind of sucked. But I’m happy it did happen that way because I found the current job I’m at right now. It’s a real life demonstration of the idea that when one door closes, another door opens. As I write this, I’m currently applying for a full-time remote teaching position over the summer; I’m gonna be fresh out of college so I decided I might as well start shooting shots all over the place even if I may be unqualified for them.
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2020 I had to put myself before the culture, and that’s something I never really did before because you all know me as someone who stands for the culture and tries to amplify important people’s voices. It was something I wasn’t used to before because I put so much of myself online and perform my authentic self in front of everyone to help as many people as I can. But in 2020 I went on more social media breaks than ever before. It’s kind of ironic considering we need the internet and social media to interact with each other, yet I wanted to step away from it now more than ever. I really had to practice mindfulness during quarantine to not feel like a robot, just all these different practices to recognize the moment that I’m in and that this is real. Like, me typing this on my RGB mechanical keyboard, feeling the clickiness of it, looking at my M1 Macbook Air screen that has a blue light filter on it, looking out my window and seeing the cars drive past my house, the plaid robe laying warmly along my body. Or wherever you’re reading this, whether it’s your phone via my Instagram bio link, or you’re on your computer reading this from your screen, feeling how the trackpad/mouse scrolls alongside your index finger. Whatever you’re listening to as you read this, there are so many senses of ours that we don’t realize are at play.
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Back in July I cut all of my hair, it was 2 wigs’ worth of hair which I found to be absolutely wild but still believable. I don’t need to talk too much about my hair, because I do enough as is, but know that my hair is continuing to grow, and hopefully by March I’ll be in a position where I can be back in my bag. Still on the journey to grow a full beard, but we’ll see how that one goes.
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Edrick messaging me the morning of Pop Smoke's death. I remember crying on the CTA train when I read this, yelling "F*ck" and an old woman next to me comforting me. I hope she's doing okay.
I really recognized how precious life was during 2020, with so many people dying on me. Unfortunately, it’s nothing new when hip hop acts pass away in tragic ways, but Pop Smoke’s death really impacted me a lot more than I thought. It came in like a month after Kobe’s death, so I basically had like little to no time to grieve. So much stuff was happening at the time. Especially with friends of mine’s family members passing away because of COVID-19, I couldn’t even imagine what’d become of me if that happened to any of my immediate family. I remember when my mom got COVID and she had to self-isolate in our basement for 2 weeks; I honestly didn’t have any worry that my mom wouldn’t make it and I’m honestly pretty privileged that I wasn’t worried at all. I often take my inner core for granted, because I don’t always realize that everyone’s not as optimistic as me. At the same time, there’s so much going for me that I’m at an advantage over so many people. I have to keep these things in mind moving forward when sharing advice or wisdom to others because not everyone’s in the same shoes as me.
I’ve been a huge believer in the idea of “reading the room”. That principle’s a lot more present today and especially online. A lot of people don’t know how to read the room. And one of the problems with this is that it’s not exactly “teachable”, people basically have to learn the hard way or they have to deal with killing the vibe or making the room awkward or dead. I’m continuing to learn more about this and figure out what better alternatives there are for people who may not be too keen on social cues. Cause I’ve seen so many people fuck up once because they didn’t know how to read the room, then they never initiated things again. I wish there was more of a lenience/grace period for people who take social L’s because a lot of people were never taught how to socialize/communicate.
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I’m not saying anything new when I say that everyone’s life has changed during quarantine. Your commute, habits, wellbeing, your own personal code, all of these have been affected during quarantine. Maybe even your own beliefs too, you might have thought you were certain about something in your life but all this free time to yourself has changed your stance on a certain topic. Interests may have evolved during quarantine as well. You may have taken on a new hobby during these times because you were bored at home and trying to keep yourself occupied with the resources you have with you.
Regardless of what the change may be, it’s certain that you have changed and that your life following quarantine will be different as your personal identity will be a lot different than what it was before.
We’re all living through a different identity than the ones we knew a year ago, because we’ve all collectively gone through the COVID-19 experience in the pandemic and we’ve adapted our lives.
It’s important to recognize how much you have changed in these past few months. And remember that accomplishments do not define growth. You may have accomplished absolutely nothing throughout quarantine, but that doesn’t tell the story about whether your life has changed or not, whether your mind has changed or not, or whether your wellbeing has changed or not.
A lot of people didn’t make it to this moment, and there are a lot of people reading this that didn’t think they were going to make it to this moment. Whether it was mental health related or physical health related, we’ve all had our own unique f*cksh*t experience this year. But we somehow made it out against all odds. I think that's something to celebrate.
I thought year 21 would be lit but it really consisted of just sitting in my room all day and playing basketball in my backyard. I barely did anything in 2020, I did not accomplish much, and it took me a while to realize that that's okay. For me personally, 2020 was not about measuring my accomplishments, but rather it made me reevaluate what accomplishments truly were, and how they were legitimized. We’re taught at a young age that physical, financial and academic feats are considered accomplishments. But it’s so much deeper than that. It’s about recognizing that mental adaptation is a FORM of growth and that changing up your normal routines to a COVID-present lifestyle is a REAL SIGN OF GROWTH!!! A lot of people never adapted to the new wave and now they’re all anti-maskers getting COVID-19.
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I never talked about my favorite music of the year, so I’ll say them here. My album of the year was SAWAYAMA by Rina Sawayama (After Hours was a close second), my song of the year was Evergreen by Ryan Beatty (“Hardest to Love” was a close second), and my favorite music discovery was Pi’erre Bourne, I genuinely believe he’s better than Playboi Carti.
I remember listening to After Hours in my room was near the beginning of quarantine, during spring break for me.
There was so much uncertainty in what the future held, but like those 3-4 hours of my night where I just kept listening to After Hours when the pandemic was only continuing to get worse, it gave me a sense of relief and normalcy during that time.
It really made me feel real at that time, it set the precedent for what quarantine albums were supposed to be for me on an impactful level. I re-learned how to enjoy music and not take it so seriously, like sitting in front of a computer all day we're so critical and nitpick every single thing about music. Sometimes you just have to let it play and really let it resonate with you.
That’s something I’m really happy about regarding my relationship with music. In 2020, I relearned how to enjoy music. On paper, Pi’erre Bourne is by no means the greatest artist of all time but he’s quickly become one of my favorite artists ever. Like, the ability to connect songs with specific memories and moments in your life. Even though I only discovered Pi’erre this year, his music reminds me of things in my life that happened years ago, to much simpler times.
And “Evergreen” man, that’s just a perfect song in my book. Easily my most played song of the year, it wasn’t even close. My LastFM will show you that it was my most played song, I’m honestly listening to it as I write this. That’s also another way my Discord friends influenced me; since I’m mainly in music servers, they got me to make a LastFM account, which basically just tracks what songs you’re listening to. It’s nothing special, but it’ll be cool to look back in time and see what song I was listening to during a specific time in 2020. Especially since 2020 was a traumatic ass year, we needed music more than ever.
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I know usually in these year reviews I’d add a photo timeline of all the things that happened to me throughout the year, but I honestly didn’t do much this year that I don’t think a photo timeline of me explaining each picture would be interesting. Not only that, but I really don’t want to go back and look at everything that happened like that. So, what I’ll do is post one picture from each month with no explanation, for your interpretation:
January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
These were my 2020 goals that I put at the end of 2019’s review:
- Learn to cook so I can eat at home and not order so much fast food
- Drop at least one song
- Be here in 2020
- Meet at least one more Discord person in real life
- Start working out and get my physique back
- FOCUS.
Well, only one of these happened, and it’s pretty obvious which one it was, because it’s obvious which ones I didn’t accomplish. But I’m not beating myself up over it at all. 2020 was a super fake year and like I mentioned earlier, my perception of growth and what it means to grow has changed, and I think that’s more important in my eyes. So you know, until we’re able to live real life again, I’m gonna hold off on the 2021 goals for now, because I admittedly can’t think of any.
Normally I’d have more to say, but I’ve been working on concision. Perhaps this is all there is to say, for now, at least. 2020 was a blur, a bailout year that I don’t plan on thinking about too much. But I’ll never take for granted me relearning how to enjoy music, me relearning what growth is, and learning to appreciate everything in my life, especially what I thought were certainties.
I graduate this May, my birthday is approximately a month from now, March 26. I think I’ll have more to say then, when I reflect on how my 21st year of life played out.
Once I graduate, I’m finally gonna be free. I’m gonna have my English degree + Communications minor, I’m gonna keep my head down and just start grinding for New York next year when I go visit. Post-graduation, I plan on taking a long, well-deserved break for everything I’ve survived, toughened myself through, and everything I’ve accomplished. This isn’t the college reflection though, that’s for another time.
Okay, enough words from me for now, I’m just going off the dome now. Thank you if you read all the way to this point, message me if you did!!! I wanna talk with you.
Love you all, trust forever
LoveTrustTrustLove
- Isaiah, Izeezus, Iz, Zeez, whoever and whatever I am to you
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